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Sunday, April 21, 2013

Bygones.

It's funny how you lose your friends.
It has been a year or two, but I just found out, or decided to be bothered enough to read through your stuff. It's funny how you always appear on my wall, it reminds me of the days when you shared random gossips, your theory of: the person must be stalking you to keep appearing in your home page. That was also the reason why I never check on your page much. But I did, out of concern of how you're doing and your recent hospitalization. I wonder if you have changed (for the better?) I wonder what story you portray now.

Thoughts upon a post so long ago 04/11 One that has backed you up and threw you down, one that akin to an abusive lover. One that you use to put the most effort to apparently had decided to discard you. She had unashamedly termed us popularity whores (seriously? whores? Sigh.) when ironically it was her who was trying so hard to be perfect for everyone else. Who is she to be kidding with? It's not easy to be your best friend and maintaining peace in a group of long time friends. Indeed ive enjoyed your presence, appreciated what you've done and savoured experiences together. You were like my partner in crime. Not sure if you're referring to me that: at least you're real and honest. If you're reading this, I thank you for a glimmer of positivity which I assume it is.
And I've changed, no longer am I the one with bad time management. Wait, was that why during the last few outings you purposely came late? What did I or we do to incur your wrath? That I was puzzled. But i guess it's just history now. And organizational skills? Hmm? Thanks but no thanks. I don't know how it affected you. If you were my best friends, you'd have mentioned? I don't know. I'd apologise then if I've disappointed you. Looking back now, I'm neutral now, was it a friendship worth saving?

There are much to be said, and none to be done. It's an unfortunate termination.